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2021.10.21 11:57 Jim-Dread I'm in love with someone who will never love me back.
She told me before we even started dating. She wasn't really looking to date anyone. It's the same thing she told me after we split, the main reason she says she wanted to stop dating.
It sucks. Because everything was going great. I confessed to her that I liked her, and she shot me down, and we became closer friends. I was ok with that. I tend to make more women friends than guy friends. I don't know why, maybe it's because I grew up in a house full of more women, maybe it's because I just get along better with women, or both. But I do end up getting small crushes on a friend and usually let those feelings die out.
This was the first time I figured out that I liked her more than just a crush and I owed it to myself to ask her out. It sucked when she said no, but she let that friendship door open and we started to hang out way more. And I was happy. I liked her as a person, and now we were hanging out more. I was still looking around to date and those feelings sort of started to dissipate. And then one day, she said we should go on a date...
I fell in love. Hard. It didn't take long. We became inseparable. She was over my place a lot, she met my kid, we did a lot. All of this at her pace. She said we should take things slow, and she was the first to do most of the steps.
And it worked. At least from my perspective. I remember being nervous at first because I thought maybe I was too boring for her, or not very interesting, I have a kid, and I'm not the most attractive while she is VERY attractive. But she would always want to be with me or text/call me. So I stopped worrying about not being enough. I focused on us and we were always doing something fun on the weekends.
Then she started to pull away. Stopped calling and texting as much. Started to hang out on her own or with friends more than me. Didn't like to be touchy. We stopped kissing like a week or two before the breakup. At first I thought it was just depression. A lot of stuff was happening for her, and she has depression. I do too, and I know space is good sometimes for me. So i was ok with not smothering her (again, a mode she set and I had to learn to even do).
We finally broke up about a month ago. I was devastated. I know she was too, but she had been prepping for it for a while. She told me if I needed time then she would give me it, but assured me that she really loves me and wanted to remain friends. Which is what I want as well. I still hold on to that. It's why I'm here.
Like I said, I deal with depression myself. Things had been tough before she came around. Two things in this life make...well, MADE me happy. My daughter and her. I'm alive because of my daughter. I have dealt with dark thoughts since I was kid. The only reason why I haven't succumbed is because of my daughter. I can't imagine her growing up without me, and I can't do that to her. When I was with my ex those thoughts were far and in between. Best I can say it is like a radio is on playing a single verse from a song mad loud and on repeat. She quiet the noise for me. Something that didn't really happen with my ex-wife. This isn't a "if I don't have her, I'll kill myself" thing. It has been like that even just her as my friend. I enjoy her company, no matter what form it takes.
In our friendship after our breakup, I have noticed things/seen things more clearly. She isn't ready to be in a relationship. With anyone. For a couple reasons. She isn't over some past traumas, I feel like, but also she gets the emotional support she needs from a relationship from two people. Her best friend and me. They hang out a lot. I started to get jealous later on because she took her to a lot of stuff I planned to do with her. But they are real close, and have a running joke that they're together, and they've said before that they're soulmates. For someone who claims not to like being touchy, they sure do hug/physically engage an awful lot.
And now that we are broken up but still friends, I still fulfill a lot of boyfriend duties. We hang out whenever we have spare time. I take her to run errands. We text a lot. I'm there for her emotionally if she needs me. I'm doing all the things I was doing pre breakup... But it's stuff I'd have done even if we weren't together. And it's fine. I want this. I need this.
Like I said, I need this friendship. The feelings will go away eventually. Yes, I know it will suck IF/when she ever decides to date someone else. I am aware... But it's going to suck either way. I know me. I'm an introvert. It takes a lot for me to open up to anyone. It was so easy for me to open up to her. I told her things about me I had kept secret from everyone in my life without hesitation. I lie to people to protect myself, I don't let people get too close. I have never lied to her. She can ask me anything right now and I'd tell her honestly. I'll never love someone the way I love her.
I'm setting myself up. It's going to suck. She will move on and forget me. But I'll never forget her. I've been over the breakup. I don't want to try to get her back, not without some serious reflection and conversation on her part. I would love it if she loved me the way I love her, but I don't think she does or will. And that's sad, but for now I still have her in my life. How do you cut contact with someone that makes the world feel calm?! I loose her friendship, I loose my inner peace.
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2021.10.21 11:57 Freedoomsy 4K Costa da Caparica Promenade & Beach Walk On a Cloudy Day - Portugal Walking Tour 2021 [42:25]
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2021.10.21 11:57 ryanallan79 Loss of a child, helplessness, what's the worst tragedy one can experience?
2021.10.21 11:57 BakedBeans77 The Prison Break
It is impossible to find a team capable of doing this heist. I am a new player so am willing to just do whatever role more experienced players would like me to do. Anyone able to lend a hand?
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2021.10.21 11:57 I_RATE_BIRDS Yellow and dried brown spots on monstera
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2021.10.21 11:57 CostlyOpportunities Looking for Workshop maps / BakkesMod plugins that work on awkward camera angles.
Hi all. When I do Leth’s rings with continuous ARL, I tend to mess up most at parts where I can’t get the camera facing toward the next ring. This situation is a little hard to isolate and practice.
My ideal would be a large, open space to fly around in where the position of the ball is randomized every 5-10 seconds, thus randomizing the camera angle. Does this exist, or does anyone know of something similar?
I’m aware of the checkpoint plug-in for BakkesMod if I wanted to practice a specific part of the rings map. However, that’s not really what I’m looking for. Also not looking for suggestions for other Rings-esque map.
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2021.10.21 11:57 popefelix Phone app to notify you when a wanted prefix / country / grid square is on FT8
I was operating FT8 last night from my living room by VNC'ing into the computer in my shack that's connected to my rig. I was doing something else (painting miniatures) and glancing back at my laptop every so often to see if I could hear someone from a wanted grid square (trying to get my WAS on FT8). JTDX will, helpfully, show wanted grid squares in the little window in the middle of the screen, and that's good, but it would be better if I didn't have to glance back at the screen.
Is there an app that will send a push notification or a text message to my phone when (this is the crucial bit) my JTDX instance sees a wanted grid square / country / prefix / etc? I just discovered Ham Alert, and I'm interested to see what it can do, but it doesn't source data from my QTH, so maybe Ham Alert can see something that I can't. The way I envision it is that JTDX or some external process sees the wanted prefix (or whatever) in the list of decoded transmissions, sends a notification to an external endpoint somewhere, and then a message gets sent to me.
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2021.10.21 11:57 ThroatFuknHedgeFunds What are some major life hacks to help save money and reduce spending?
2021.10.21 11:57 meric_orr Looking for Titans revenge, any trades?
2021.10.21 11:57 ShareAnxious [MCU] what if The Masters of the mystic arts taught the world how to use magic
2021.10.21 11:57 Beautiful-Phase3934 JuiceWRLD999 beat by jamesfelder478 on TikTok title Long Live J
2021.10.21 11:57 FirmDegree8778 got a black border on mobile lol (it took me like 9 days)
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2021.10.21 11:57 randomgoos_the_goose He's the same age as me but I swear he has the mind of a fucking 3 year old
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2021.10.21 11:57 Pitiful-Beyond5286 Views of Karl Marx
Karl Marx observed that the ideological superstructure of firms, enterprises etc., was excessively exploiting "skill" and "labour" of workers.
This ideological superstructure "justifies" and "legitimises" the vast inequality of "wealth" and "power" between workers(labourers) and owners(managers). The owners(managers) hoard profits; and workers on the other side are "laughed to scorn".
The workers would continue to live in "agony" and "misery", so long as they would remain under false conscience!!!
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2021.10.21 11:57 CADhouse How much debt/interest should I have? (30/M &F)
I am curious as to how others determine how much debt/interest expense I should have.
It's a given that the interest expense is dependent on the debt size and the interest rate of the loan.
But is there a rule like 30% of your gross income can go to servicing debt, that the personal finance community recommends? I assume that this % sways depending on where you are in the financial journey so this is my current financial situation:
Condo Market Value: $1M
Mortgage: 570K @ 1.19% (Every month I do an additional payment that goes purely to principal)
No other interest payments
TFSA - 231K
RRSP - 51K
Household Income: 110K + 110k = 220K
I have been over the past 13 months been trying to execute the smith manoeuver. So I created a HELOC account (2.45%) that I withdraw from on a monthly basis and invest with. Currently, I owe 106K on that HELOC but have a cash account of 116K which is comprised of QQQ and XEQT. In the last 4 months is when a lot of the borrowing occurred hence the small gains.
But for the current 106K I owe, my monthly interest is $138.29 which I capitalize the interest on (by borrowing from the HELOC). So I actually don't experience a cashflow impact from this.
So currently on a Gross HH income of 220K we have interest of about 138.29 (HELOC int) + 567.28 (home interest) which is 705$ monthly. Our paychecks come out to 12400 a month after some RRSP contributions. 705/12400 is about 5.875%. Is that too low? Given that interest rates are low should I borrow more to invest? I know rates are expected to rise next year but even if I were to double my current debt size id still have only a 10% ratio?
What kind of analysis do you guys do for this?
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2021.10.21 11:57 BadJuJuQ Benefits of Timeshares
Sincere answers only, please.
Everyone knows timeshares are notorious money pits, so why would anyone get a Timeshare? What are the benefits of a Timeshare over renting a hotel for a week?
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2021.10.21 11:57 sureprisim Hey one one has a 3D designs I can use to test the new printer? I want to start making custom parts like swords, guns, extra armor, and alt back backs. Thoughts?
2021.10.21 11:57 elle-94 Lexapro helped so much and now I’m getting worse. TW: SH
26F - I think I’m getting worse with Lexapro now than I was when I started. If anyone has had similar experiences, I’d love to hear about it. I have been taking 10mg/day for about 7 months or so.
I already had horrible sleeping habits before starting, but recently within the last 1-2 months I’ve barely been sleeping through the night even though I use melatonin (Usually 3-6mg). I wake up at least once or twice throughout the night.
I’m foggy all day and have 0 energy even with working out 4-5x/week. I feel like I never sleep at all. When I do, I’m still at 0 energy. I’m also feeling more depressed now than I have been in a very long time. I self harmed this week and I’m tempting to do it again.
I don’t want to up my dosage. If anything, I’d rather quit it all together after consulting my doctor on how to do so. Again, just would like to hear if anyone else has experienced anything similar.
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2021.10.21 11:57 amarula06 I'm so happy about our pre wedding shoot!!
2021.10.21 11:57 panditji_reloaded #WATCH | Jalaun: UP Min Upendra Tiwari says, "...Only a handful of people use 4-wheelers & need petrol. 95% of people don't need petrol. Over 100 cr vaccine doses were administered free of cost to people...If you compare (fuel price) to per capita income, prices are very low now"
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2021.10.21 11:57 lilchalupzen where is the MCM?
2021.10.21 11:57 Reezpuffs03 Is this a good build for 850$?
I'm trying to help my friend pick parts for his pc and I already made a list. Just want to ask if these parts are good, worth the budget and have no compatability issues.
His budget is 984$ and a monitor is included in the budget. He's still looking for a monitor but he wanted a 144hz monitor so I lowered the budget by about 157$ to 196$ for the monitor.
Here's the parts list:
Total cost: 43k Php or 850$ (might increase or decrease a little bit depending on the available brands)
CPU: Ryzen 3 3100
MOTHERBOARD: Gigabyte B550M Gaming
RAM: Corsair Vengeance RGB Pro 16gb (might change depending on availability)
SSD: Western Digital SN550 500gb NVMe SSD
HDD: Western Digital 1tb SATA Blue
GPU: Geforce GTX 1650
Case: Darkflash DLM21 Mesh
PSU: Coolermaster MWE 500W or a Corsair PSU
What do you guys think? I'm very open for any changes, suggestions and other recommendations.
Thanks in advanced
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2021.10.21 11:57 dawgraw Another one
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2021.10.21 11:57 The_How_2_Dad Protecting infotainment
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